Mar 01 2007
Today Is My Birthday and I can Laugh Out Loud If I Want To
Today Ms. Q turns 42.
Those of you who have followed my blog may have figured that I had a birthday coming up.
I’m not here to tell you that turning 42 is just one big self-empowering barefoot run through a field of daisies. Ha!
I’m not here to tell you what does and does not work in the body of a reasonably healthy 42 year old woman.
What I want to share with you is that sooner or later you’ll ask yourself The Big Question and that question is, “Is this all there is?”
I’ve been asking myself this question for years. I’ve manage to avoid answering it.
Last year I realized that despite all the trappings of success I was dissatisfied.
I didn’t feel as if I could complain.
Have you ever felt like life could be so much more? That YOU could be so much more?
That’s how I felt. I still feel that way. I believe that everyone has that seed of greatness inside them and it is belief that causes that greatness to manifest.
Sometimes it is self-belief and sometimes it is the belief of another.
I see many people who are afraid to ask for more out of life. They accept what life has to give them. It’s very difficult to change from an unquestioning attitude to a questioning one.
For example, I live in a wonderful place surrounded by friends. I should be very happy with my life.
Should I accept this unquestioningly? Or should I ask, “Can my life be better?”
The answer is, “YES!”
- I could have more than a job – I could have a passion.
- I could be open to love and find someone to share my life with.
- I could give more freely of myself: love more and judge less.
You’re thinking: Ms. Q is having a mid-life crisis.
You’d be right. I think mid-life crises are good things. I have the time, resources and luckily, the health, to change my life and shape my destiny.
Last year I took a deep breath and started changing my life and YOW! What a difference a year makes!
Has it been easy? Not exactly. It’s been a challenge. It’s been exciting. It’s been scary. It’s been fun.
Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday to me!
You’re never too old to make a wish and it’s usually worth it to try to make that wish come true.
A birthday?
Who is going to administer the birthday spankings?
Ms. Q is not into spanking either receiving it or administering it.
Spanking is not dignity-enhancing. Ms. Q just drove through SNOW. Morning news in Omaha mentioned “accumulation”, “low visibility”, “school closings”, “blizzard conditions in area”, “won’t let up until the late afternoon”.
I arrived at work and since my client knows I’m a snow weinie, they were dumbfounded to see me.
Happy birthday. Happy birthday to me. Yup.
Happy birthday to the inimitable Ms. Q. As you are improving your life, you are making those lives around you better, and we thank you for it.
So, is driving through snow successfully dignity-enhancing? I forgot, Ms. Q is not a snow bunny.
Jake: thanks for the kind words! Yes, it felt good to overcome my inner snow weinie and get to work intact. I ended up driving the client home as he has rear-wheel drive and that doesn’t work so good with slick snow-covered roads.
Good thing he wasn in the car with me because he taught me a new trick: how to rock the car back and forth to get out of your snow-heaped parking space. AAaah. The smell of burning rubber.
Happy Birthday Ms.Q, and yes life can be better if you want to:)
Andy: thanks for the birthday wishes!
MsQ- sounds to me like you are preparing for a journey to determine your purpose. That is a good journey.
DigitalRich
DigitalRich: Yes, I do feel that I am on the right path. I have always known that I was a writer but I denied it. I wasn’t ready to be one. I believe that things happen for a reason and I needed to go through everything I have so far in order to become the writer I am now. I’m not big on regret. I try to learn and move forward.